No One Spotted My Toddlers Cancer
In the middle of the pandemic, no one ever saw my baby. It has been three years since Tabby was first diagnosed with cancer. As if my life wasn’t hard…
Life Update
I was thinking about what I wanted to write about, and mostly figured that a life update would be good. I haven't been blogging much, or even writing much. And…
Turning Two After Cancer
A birthday is pretty special for your kids; they're getting bigger, growing older, and becoming their own people. A birthday for a kid who has survived childhood cancer is...something else.…
I am turning into my mother
For a long time, both growing up and as an adult, I feared turning into my father. He's just like his mum and I used to worry that eventually, I…
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Parental Guilt, Intrusive Thoughts, and Childhood Cancer
One of the first thoughts I had, when they told me Beany had cancer, was that she was going to die. That I was going to lose my child, the…
Poem: We carry stars in our pockets from place to place
I have stars for you, bright but out of tune shining but always passing you by. We have to work harder to catch them, you and I, stretch a little…
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My Kid Has Cancer
I'd actually been working on Beany update post - she's 16 months old, I've neglected the blog even though there is so much to say and now everything is...different. Four…
Everything She CAN Do
A couple of months ago, Beany had her 15 month check-up. She's missing some of her milestones. I've never really been interested in the milestones but I hadn't realised how…
The Sleep Goblin
Comparison is part of human nature. Sometimes useful, often a problem, but we can't help it. We compare everything without even noticing. This cheese is better than that cheese, I…